Apr 8, 2007

...for better, or for worse...

we woke up on sunday to the call of "he's critical. when can you reach here?"
after a plethora of feelings and phone calls, we're going down to india this week. *probably, on the 10th* have no clue when we'll return.

my father in law's in the hospital as yet. and we don't know if he'll make it. this is a man who's not much elder to my own father. who loves me almost as much as my dad loves me. and definitely as much as he loves his son. i have no clue how to react. i'm still numb. it's tuff enuf to see V like this, it's frightening to think of his mom right now. i just hope we can get there at the earliest and at least be there for her.

usually, an india trip would be something to look forward to. i don't know if i'm right in saying this, but i'm so not looking forward to this trip. i'm horrible at handling emotions. even worse when they happen to be emotions of people who matter to me. being practical can be such a bane at times!

but i have vowed to be there with V; for better and/or for worse... in sickness and in health. not only for him, but for everyone he holds dear. and i intend to stick to my vows. honestly, i don't know if the distance has shielded us from the pain or made us more susceptible to it. will find out shortly. this is one flight i'm going to detest. and maybe, not be able to sleep on.

16 comments:

Sarfraaz Ahmed said...

Good Luck. Lets hope he gets well soon.

svety said...

hey rayshma...u're a strong woman and u know it...ur family needs u and u're completely upto it..i'll pray for u and ur family...

Noodlehead said...

:( i'll pray for your family...hope everything turns out ok.

i know what you mean about not wanting to take this trip. hang in there!

Incredibly Indian said...

My prayers are with your family and you.

Mahogany said...

Good luck. Hope things turn out well.

By Deepa and Supriya said...

Rayshma,
hope everything turns out alright...yes I agree distance makes the perception of pain ver different..but the important thing is to realize this and to be there, wich you are, so....

Fuzzylogic said...

((Rayshma))I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping everything is going to be ok for your FIL. Take care my friend and be strong.

Monsieur K said...

dont worry. hope everything turns out fine for your family.

Crumbling Cookie said...

Take care Rayshma! Hope everything turns out okay.

ankurindia said...

in difficult times you have to control your imotions and fight situations .strong faith and optimistic attitude does wonder

Fuzzylogic said...

Just checking in Raysh,hope things are fine.

MJS said...

Hey, I did hear that you were in India.. Probably still there.. Hope that things are fine now. I honestly have no idea on whats happening, but I surely am praying for V and his family!

Sid Soni said...

good luck.

rayshma said...

hi guys.
am back. to reality & the virtual world. i wish prayers would've helped.. i guess we were too late.
anyways, shall visit all ur spaces soon. and post even sooner.
thx a ton for being there.

upsilamba said...

Rayshma --
I just checked in on you. So sorry to hear about the loss.
I dont know what to tell you -- but I hope you find the strength to move on and support V and his mom.
Sending a big hug across.
Much love to you.

rayshma said...

hi upsi,
thx, babes! i also am quite at a loss of words when it comes to saying anything on this. but really appreciate the support. thx a ton!