Oct 16, 2010

in conversation

The other day, when he thought he's getting late while coming to pick me up:
vin: if I get late, wait RIGHT there, ok?
me: of course I'll wait. where will I go?
vin: no. don't go with anyone else. i WILL come to get you.

The other evening, when I was waiting for a friend at the station, a random man who was passing by paused, looked at me, did a double-take and said "boy! you're really beautiful!" and walked on before i could react or say thanks.
when I got home, I mentioned this to vin.
In typical filmy style, his response:
"aaj se tumhara college jaana bandh!"

We debated this morning about how V has no sense of order and leaves his things lying around the house.
In the evening, there are dollar bills lying on the center table. I didn't leave them there. So I turn to Vin, raise an eyebrow, and accusingly say
"what are these dollar bills doing here?"
the man, having learned a LOT in the past four years looks at me and says
"oh that's for later in the evening. when you start stripping?"

p.s.: clarifications.
No, I do not go off with random people at train stations.
and no, I do not strip later in the evenings. any evenings. just saying.


there are moments. when some people feel close. so close. that you feel you can reach out and touch them. that maybe you should.

and then, the moment passes.
you open your eyes to your reality.
and move on.

Oct 3, 2010

long time...

a lot has been happening.
amongst other things - for those of you who came in late - i'm back to school. after four years of procrastinating and choosing alternatives, i've bitten the bullet. and school is one whirlwind affair.

when you get used to having your time and space to do things that you like; it's difficult to adapt to a routine which requires you to be at your sharpest at any hour of the day. to get back to reading case studies and writing papers. to listening to a prof talk for close to three hours. difficult is an understatement.
so yes, it's been different. and difficult.
but i'd like to think i'm getting the hang of it.

the positives... realizing that you haven't lost the touch to befriend people. people that you genuinely like and get along with. it's comforting to know that people like this exist. that the possibility of finding 'good' friends still exists.
that there still is hope.

the negatives? not being able to speak to people who sort you out. who know you. who love you. who miss you. no matter how many times you say "i miss you", it's just not enough to convey how much i really miss connecting with the people i care for. and saying that i'm busy makes me feel very inefficient and inadequate.
so yes, i'm hoping i've managed to adapt. and that i will make time for things i like. and the people i love.

hopefully, i won't abandon this space either. this blog means way too much to me to let it die. so here's committing myself to it. and to school. and to those in my life that make me feel good about being me. you all know who you are... thanks for being so patient. thanks for being around.
means a lot.

p.s.: the humor shall return. soon.