run away!

i may give awesome suggestions on how situations make us stronger, better individuals. how fighting things out is the right thing to do etc. and i believe all of that. really, i do. but when it comes to me. i just run.

i think i'm a coward. really. inadvertently, i have mostly taken the easier option out. it's not something i'm proud of. i'm just very non-confrontational. unless of course, u try and poke a stick at something that's dear to me. then, may ur lord save u.

but yeah, running away is the bestest solution that comes to my silly, stressed mind. however, strangely *in the sense that I find it strange*, this attitude is only limited to my personal life. professionally, i'm super aggressive. sometimes, more than required. suruchi can vouch that i can draw blood for a celina jaitley exclusive wallpaper; but personally, it has to be REAL personal. otherwise, i'll run away!

let me tell u a couple of instances... when running away was not and should not be the ideal solution. but it was. for me.

the other day when suruchi and i were bitching about our respective husbands... i told her she should run away. only then will he realize her worth. also told her how i'd run away last year and how the poor hubby THEN realized he does miss me.
see, it's very easy to get "used" to each other. being around all the time and stuff. so running away provides a good respite.

minal and i have a pact. that WHEN we run away from home, *not if, when. we know that someday, we will* we can always seek refuge in the others' house. and the other will not ask ANY questions. about why, how long etc. neither will we attempt to contact the respective husband and inform him that their wife is with us.

y'day... i saw this huge...and i mean, HUGE insect in my bathroom. my first instinct was not to squash it or scream. i RAN. OUT of the bathroom. and locked it. and sat and whimpered on the couch. THEN, i mailed vin. before i could call him, suruchi called me. and we had an entertaining conversation which i cannot share. but running away was my reflex.

long back, my folks wanted me to get married. i didn't sit across the table and argue/discuss with them. i ran away to bbay. where i could work in peace and didn't have to constantly have marital pressures on my head! returned when i wanted to get married. problem solved. nobody bursts a nerve.

the job scene. now, only i know how frustrating it has been. but when i think abt next year. the BEST solution in my mind is running away to another country. where we BOTH may be able to work peacefully. NOT that i could change streams and take up IT or i could go back to school. NAAAAHHH... running away. that's what i excel in!

R asked me what i'd do if i didn't get along with my MIL who's gonna be visiting us in less than a month. i answered with complete seriousness. "i'll run away"

right now, we don't know what to do over the weekend. and know that if we stay at home, one of us will kill the other. *i'm in one of those phases* so we're running away to houston. of course, we'll run away from there as well and be back here before u know i've been gone.

see? that's how serious i am about it.